Last official day of school was today! Time to get to some serious mugging. Just to tell friends on here that I won't be replying to RPs and stuff until December; I'm sorry! I really need to focus on studying to get any hope of like, an A for Math and Econs and whatever. I will miss you guys! I'll still be lurking, just not as often for now. D:


Talking to my friend about the future is depressing. Not that she's depressing me; but just. Everyone seems to at least have some kind of direction in what they want to take or be in the future, and I'm just here. Feeling like I "lack ambition" and being pretty much freaking aimless. Science besides forensics doesn't really appeal to me -- I don't want to be a doctor. And Accounting is definitely out. So are Engineering and Physics-related fields. My friend says I'm suited for Law but I don't know how she gets this idea hahaha. Humanities sounds good and things like psychology (but I'm not interested in being a clinical psychologist), sociology, and anthropology, et cetera are interesting to me but there aren't really much career choices besides being a teacher (which is so much do not want for me; okay, in lieu of Teacher's Day next Monday, I don't have anything against teachers and think teaching's a noble profession, but it's not for me). I may pursue something in design and visual arts, but contrary to popular belief I'm not the most creative person and I'll probably have problems with clients because sometimes they might have a total lack of artistic sense, and also, I have no colour sense at all.

I probably won't get a scholarship or whatever because I don't have like 842429462 achievements and CIP hours, and unless my parents rob a bank, there won't be enough funds to consider overseas education. Besides I'll probably die in a foreign country because I'm pampered and won't take to self-sufficiency hahaha.

OKAY RIGHT I'M GOING TO LIKE DIE AN EARLY DEATH, CRASH AND BURN, because I don't really see myself going anywhere in the future.

This is an emo post. Normally I'm somewhat self-assured and confident enough, but you know, all this thinking and discussion about the future gets me jittery and nervous and depressed because I don't know where I'm going to end up and everybody else does. Aasddffuga; let's go be some variant of a starving artist who mooches off her successful friends hahaha.